Choosing Oblivion

 

We’ll always do something

and it will be just that no more no less

It will be and the rest won’t be

while being in thought and in oblivion

We’ll always say something

and it will mean just that no more no less

It will be and the rest won’t be

while being in thought and oblivion

 

Do I choose?

standing here thinking, while already choosing

Every crossroad

Every choice

Even if we don’t we do

 

We choose

We keep choosing

Willingly or not, we do

unavoidably

 

And surrounded

By the screams and graves

of all the thousand us

dead in the futures

that are now

past or present

for the briefest second

And I know they’re there

 

Choosing oblivion we rest and suppress and

Choosing oblivion we die and live and

Choosing oblivion what is is

and what isn’t isn’t

but could have now been

 

Sitting here in this room

only filled by my emptyness

all my sorroundings scream

about my solitude

we’re alaways caught

in an endless abyss

that remembers, more than us,

what we want to forget

 

Am I the picture of me

shining on a silent screen?

chasing dreams of eternity

outward over inward

 

We’ll always say something

and it will mean just that no more no less

It will be for real

while being in thought and in oblivion

being in thought and in to oblivion

being in tought!

 

Surrounded

By the screams and graves

of the thousand us

dead in the futures

that are now

past or present

for the briefest second

we try to get somewhere

the road ahead is always so unclear

my head is drowned in my hands

crowded by thoughts, craving oblivion

we try to be someone

the way you choose is never the only one

it will be the one you’ll cover

but was it really the best possible?

 

Do I choose?

standing here thinking, while already choosing

every crossroad every choice,

Even if we don’t we do

Sitting in this room

only filled by my emptyness

all the sorroundings scream

about my solitude

we’re always caught

in an endless abyss

that remembers, more than us,

what we want to forget

please let me forget